David Erik

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Moving towards your mountain

This post was found abandoned in an old folder. My routines have changed in many ways since then. But the conclusions are still valid. And I still lack a mountain. Also, the physical risk from floor ball did catch up with me and managed to destroy my inferior extensor retinaculum. I may have googled that term. But still.

I’m sitting at the office, listening to Winnerbäck which always makes me nostalgic. I will now spend 20 minutes writing. After I’m done, I’ll head home with bus 8 (practicing French through the Duolingo app as I go) and cook my dinner (palt), which I’ll eat to the new episode of New Girl (if it’s released today, else I’ll see a random old episode of Community). After that I’ll go to IKSU (first gym exercise, then playing floor ball with friends). When that ends, I will stay around at IKSU talking with the same friends for a while, drinking a Gainer Milk Shake-thingy and after that I’ll head home, turn on the music and take a shower. The clock will now be around 22:00 and I will probably spend an hour or so chilling in front of my computer - maybe write some code, organize some files or write an email. About 23:00 (and most likely closer to 23:30), I’ll finally go to bed and spend the last half hour reading something from my bed table. This checks of two of my current habits, ”sleep before midnight” and ”read more”. Even though it takes a while after midnight to fall asleep, I count this as a success and can check of all my daily tasks (exercise, language and writing were already completed).

The elements of this day have two things in common: I have done them all before, and they are completely risk free.*

No part of this daily routine is new to me. I know exactly how they will turn out, and I know what they will reward me. I know that I will be kind of satisfied when the day ends. But not completely satisfied. Why? Because I know I could have accomplished more, had I taken risks.

Risks are tricky. I think that the key to taking more risks is to know what you are striving for, what goal you are working towards and how amazing it will be when you get there.

Neil Gaiman talks in his commencement speech (very inspiring, take a look) about taking actions for getting closer to his mountain, in this context the long term goal of being an author. Whenever he would have to make a decision regarding work and likewise, he simply imagined if this would take him further away from or closer to his mountain. And if something would take you much closer to your mountain, the risk of doing it would be simpler to accept.

The problem here is to find your mountain. I do not yet know mine. And I think this is why I currently live a risk-free life. Without really knowing where I want to head, it’s hard taking a risk that might take you a long distance away from that place. You don’t just start driving randomly while waiting for directions.

This has no real ending statement. I’ll just state that I need to find my mountain. What’s your mountain and how are you moving towards it?

* Well, floor ball is actually kind of dangerous when you play with my friends. But that’s a purely physical risk.